I need to share. I need a job. I don't know what and how. Just know I have to get out there. Stuck in the mud kind of feeling. Don't know how, I am not that fast anymore or it seems to me. I don't know what to do. So many don't knows. Should I just do it. Be brave and do it? And then see how it goes? It won't kill me or anyone, I guess?!Just in my head. In the head. then. Let's move on!

Life is amazing. It has twists and turns. Surprising sometimes, saddenning the other times, cheering and many other variants. Amazing. I've got so much to tell. Will do. Right now just this. Amazing.

Joy

Happy to realise that what I am doing now is something that makes me ME and is easy and so fulfilling. I am a teacher and seeing people's happy eyes, full of gratitude is something to work for to live for, I feel that I am doing something worthwhile. I am appreciated and loved and I am in love with all my students. Happiness indeed :)

Bored, bored, bored!!!! Laughing at myself, such a boredom I have never felt in many years!!! Just left a gang of people, my relatives, my cousin says it is adaptation to being away from them again... Wow, that's hard:) Thinking what to do to get back to unagitated state, unbored state... Will probably start taking pictures again or singing or something totally ne, like tennis! Think I am cheered up again at least for now:) Hope you all are in great form!!!

It feels like I've lost it. I mean, Inspiration... Or am I mistaking it with low mood? I guess, and the tooth that bothers added to it. Well, yeah, it happens, just let not yourself take it too seriously. I will not:)

In love

Sometimes it just happens... It feels so good, you are like a bird. Heart is beating differently, somehow happily. You think about the reasons of the changes. You smile and just know you are in love... Is it pleasant, is the feeling mutual? You actually do not care just now. Let it flow and enjoy the heartbeat...

Things happen

I was celebrating my birthday one night and well, it was awesome!! But that is not what I am trying to tell you at the moment. I got a text message from a person I didn't know. He sent a text to me by mistake .I refused to continue our conversation at some point, even though he was a very polite person and wished me a happy birthday. We stopped texting, but a few months later we happened to meet in the network world again.

We spoke on the phone, interesting. He told me he was in prison and that didn't surprise me much. I am a very curious person and my purpose was to get as much information from him as possible. So I learned that it is not as bad in prison as they all tell. They live quite a life there, just a bit boring at times-that is the main idea in imprisonment, I guess. They are not allowed phones, but for decent money that you get through a prison's shop assistant or someone else from your parents or friends. Yeap, they have shops there in prison too, just like in real life, out here!

The most common question you ask a prisoner: are you guilty? The most common answer: I am not guilty. Yep. That is the truth-no man likes to admit fault and rarely does... Don't you think?! Thats what the statistics say and we all know.

The point I am trying to bring here is that we get to know people so unexpectedly sometimes. And actually very meaningful too. I later realised that that experience, his attitude to life was the opposite to mine. I realised how righteous my life was, how rewarding and rich. He helped me in the moment of despair, when I felt like in prison covered with problems, to feel freedom and presence of fantastic people around me.

Life is on your side

Recently I feel that life is easier when we relax our minds, listen to our hearts and just expect the best. I read loads of articles and books and reading them gave an idea of some superpower that is watching and guiding you and at the very first I was so fighting to fulfill my dreams, was working hard and even ahead of my own thoughts and nothing seemed to work out as I wished. I just had to stop for a break, I just 'took a nap' from all my businesses to discover one day that all is coming so naturally and everyone is on your side and every day is a fantastic new opportunity!

GOALS

Recently all I hear and see in the books, magazines is: define what is what you like to do most and do it well, then you are going to be satisfied and rewarded. But what if you like everything and would like to conduct everything at the same time... What if you cannot chose? What if you like many things and activities and can not concentrate on one? What happens to such persons? Can they be professionals at something particular? Like, totally professional, you know, they can do this and the others can't? Is it so necessary? Or can you just be what you are and care not of what society needs from you... Da Vinci. He was an architect, scientist, artist, historian, and more. And he is known for his one painting mostly and just some projects, but he actually was important for the society in some way, and he devoted himself to doing what he liked - everything. I think, he was happy and lived long, he was not one-goal-setter, it seems. So, maybe, some of us do not need to be?...

POWERFUL BEYOND MEASURE

Every new day is a great source for ideas. Every day there is something that can make you go wild and start a new thing! Happens when you really need it and want it. And it feels so good, doesn't it?!
And don't be afraid to go forward if it feels right. don't be afraid of your own light (OUR DEEPEST FEAR IS NOT THAT WE ARE INADEQUATE. OUR DEEPEST FEAR THAT WE ARE POWERFUL BEYOND MEASURE. IT IS OUR LIGHT NOT DARKNESS THAT FRIGHTENS US MOST. AND WHEN WE LET OUR LIGHT SHINE, OUR PRESENCE LIBERATES OTHERS AND LET THEM DO THE SAME. Nelson Mandela ). Great, lets do it!

Meditation

I am no expert in meditation, but love doing it and I found a good source for the music. It frees your mind from the unwanted thoughts if you let and if you follow your teacher. I have one, his name is Deepak Chopra. I listen to him on the radio and he is wonderful! There are many great teachers, It makes me so happy knowing that there are people that share my ideas and feelings. We are all one!

The healer

Music is a healer. So is laughter. The mind is free from unnecessary thoughts and you are happy. Works well for me. The continuous laughter you get in Ireland. They speak with jokes and eat with jokes, work jokingly and go asleep laughing. As for the music - it is everywhere and all the time. Euphoria. I recommend!

Kailas

Some time ago I heard about a great mountain Kailas in Tibet. It is miraculous they say. It changes all and everyone. One can heal his wounds of any kind, the view on life changes and always for the positive. I was also told that was built, that it is not nature-made, and the height is about 6666 meters. After all me and a couple of my friends decided to make a trip as soon as possible. Are you coming too?!

Life is for living it amazingly well!

Every day is a fantastic opportunity to express yourself in life and show your abilities and your inner beauty, because we are very beautiful, aren't we?! Everything that we think about comes true and sometimes so fast, that usually gives so much strengh and we continiue on that peak and we should all our life be on our top and trust ourselves and live to the brightest and fullest! I love life! This is a motto!

Books

I like short stories, and I like reading them and writing them too. What about you? I noticed that people do not read books as much as they used to, well they read internet now... I think it is great and there is all you need here, just be careful with the eyes, do some excersise. But I may be a little bit old-fashioned and love reading classics. The most known are so easy to read and so inspirational, that you wonder why you kept that book away for so long. Reading great books is healing your soul or so it seems...

Hobbies rule!

Hello, my dear reader! I am very happy that you are here and reading my revelations. We do not know each other, but I feel that I do already. It is a good year, the 2010, the WFC is over, well, I think it is. People are happier now, looking for new jobs and new hobbies. It was a good shake that last year: many of my friends left their places and went for something that they really loved. They changed their jobs to hobbies and so happy now. It is amazing how this world works. The world needed a kick to start thinking in a little bit different direction. And I really like the chineese interpretation of the word 'crisis' - 'danger' and 'opportunity'. Did you have an opportunity? I think we all did. As for myself, I totally changed my life and my business and I found something that I love to be doing most. Always look at the bright side of life and chose the 'opportunity' word - this is my motto!

Forgive

Forgiveness... Do not fill yourself with anger, let it go. Just as easy as it got you. Free your soul and you spirit. It is just so frustrating sometimes being with someone, so annoying... So you better be off, go some place else, distract yourself for a while. Do not listen to the ugly criticism that you think is out of place. Forgive them all. They do not know you, you are not very certain of their feelings either. Better not argue, save your own nerves. And go outside, shout if needed, write a letter, then destroy it - no one needs to see or hear your anger - there is too much of it in the world anyway!

Hot or cold: you choose!

Hey, how is it going? I hope you are all feeling great! It is winter for me, summer for some, let us be happy for that. And especially happy for living on this planet, where you can move from hot to cold in a couple of hours! Want to ski - go to Italy, Switzerland, Russia... Need a swim in the hot sea? Sure, have it in Australia or Brazil or elsewhere! Lovely, is it not?! Enjoy your season!

Choices

Choices, choices, too many options, so many wishes... So hard to choose something at one time... You are uncertain, can not do them altogether and can not have it at once, but would love to. Then you might need help, well I do. I ask my friends, they always help and they have the best advise, and the right one is round the corner from someone's words or dids. If you are stuck and can not find the right path - just ask for help, people tend to offer help. People are great!

Forbidden...not

How fond are you of music? Can you live a day without it? I do not think I could. I was born in the country, where people starved for music, because it was forbidden to listen anything that would put the political life in danger, well they thought it was destroying the communism and thet west was rotten and that American influence was bad too. People used to hide and listen, used to gather up in groups to discover anti-Soviet miracles. Sound so ridiculous and weird now for the new generation, but was pretty serious for our parents and the bands in the past. I still like the style of those bands. They mostly stopped singing, as there is nothing else to hide and actually, there is so much pop music that rock-and-roll is dead, and also the taste is dead for the mainstream. Not so many like foreign music, not so many would like to search for novelties, for the new motives. Not so sweet anymore the fruit that once was forbidden...