I need to share. I need a job. I don't know what and how. Just know I have to get out there. Stuck in the mud kind of feeling. Don't know how, I am not that fast anymore or it seems to me. I don't know what to do. So many don't knows. Should I just do it. Be brave and do it? And then see how it goes? It won't kill me or anyone, I guess?!Just in my head. In the head. then. Let's move on!